Journey of life with God
when i was 15 years old i was fell in-love in someone i pray hard, I’ve always dream that it was me and him forever, i really in-love with her personality but later on I’ve heard that he have a girl friend my heart was really broken that cut into a pieces and i can’t i really cant move on, i really can’t get over i really can’t but when the time posses by time heals the wound in my heart ..
and now i still wait for that MAN in God’s Perfect Time i just need to pray and focus to the Lord….
there’s so many things in life people are always worrying about life,tomorrow,money, business,grades, and so on and so fort, worrying about anything doesn’t give good, it will give you stress and sickness, specially a heavy heart so cheer up don’t worry about anything there is God, the God who provide anything you need, the God who will give you strength and encouragement… DON’T WORRY GIVE ALL TO GOD AND BE STILL..
you are NOT WORTH IT
you are SINNER
you are UNLOVED
you are UGLY
you are WORST more than you think
BUT BECAUSE OF JESUS……
you are WORTH IT
you are FORGIVEN
you are LOVED
you are BEAUTIFUL
you are FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE
you are AMAZING
you are AWESOME
you are THE SON’S AND DAUGHTER’S OF GOD
you are Created by the one who create the World
This world is full of earthly things, full of fake news, sadness, condemnation, depression, stress and hardships, all human suffered in hardships, there’s a lot of problem we’ve encounter but the thing is you don’t walk alone, you don’t alone, actually you don’t need to fight for you self because God fight for you, the God who create the universe the earth, the God who create you is fight for you, you just need to be still and trust HIM..
There’s a girl who’s really tired of anything
she always pray and talk to God but she feel that God can’t hear us so she decided to do not pray but when the time passes by her spirit was so weak and she feel so lonely and cold but one time she open her bible and she read it..
THE EYES OF THE LORD ARE ON THE RIGHTEOUS AND HIS EARS ARE ATTENTIVE TO THEIR CRY -PSALM 34:15
-God always hear us
-He see’s each tears that fall
-God knows what we feel
-God always listen to us so who we are to do not listen to God
and God told that Girl: I’LL FIGHT FOR YOU, YOU NEED TO BE STILL..LEARN HOW TO LISTEN TO BE AND BE QUIET…
when the girl realize that she started to pray and give her all worries to God and she always taking to God…
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There are many thing that happened in my life, up’s and down’s, Depression, Bullied and Suicide, but i want to start this story from the quote “JESUS LOVE’S YOU”
When i was 15 years old i am afraid of clowns, specially in killer clowns, every time i walk i observe the place, and every time i commute i always imagine that killer clown is beside me and he wants to kill me, i was so scared.
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There are moment in my life that i dreamed killer clown was chased me and he want to kill me, i wake up in the morning with tears of scared, so i look my mentor to help me.
After a few days we meet up in Garden Of Life at 8:00 pm and tell everything i wanted to say, specially about killer clown.
Our conversation starts to lasted. And i cry for she said that “killer clown is not true they don’t exist” and she said “YOU ARE FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE you are not ugly because you are SON OF GOD, God is always focus on you because HE Love’s you.
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In that time my tears is continuous flowing and God remind me that He Love’s me so much and He will Protect me always, He Covered me with His Han, so whom shall i fear if God who create the world, sun, starts and universe will protect me.
And God is always remind me that before i fell in love in someone i must be complete in God and when JESUS SAY YES I’ll be say yes.
On November 2014, i came to this place WIN Mandaluyong and there i saw a variety of people. There are worshiper, server, singer musicians, dancer and lecturers or pastors. The light was turned off and cold, so i grabbed my jacket and put it on and after a while the singers start to sing, dancers dance as the musicians turned the beat, it played a joyful song and the people around me start to dance as they clapped their hands. Suddenly, i also start to sing even i barely know what the song is. I gradually lift my hand make me joyful. After the first song came the second fast one then followed by a slow one that made me shed a tear. From that i know i encounter JESUS.
August 2017, I was 15 years old came the most memorable part of my life. I trained in Performing Arts Ministry in our church, i became one of the Dancers, i trained for almost a year and five months. And was later on shocked when our Ministry Head told me that my training is done and i can dance or perform during our church service. My wish and dream was granted upon hearing this news. On that day i first perform i was nervous, very nervous my crush congratulates me and i blushed. The lead singer of that day was him and was so inspired while dancing.
The turning point of my life is when God Change me, yeah that’s true , its hard to explain how God change me but the truth is God is always with me.
I can still remember the day how i look in Life,i see my mother how hard she work for us,i see she going home past 12:00 am,i see how my father leave us,i see how my mother cry for my father,and i see how she survive the pain she have.because of that i dream more and more,i dream to be richer,to help my mother,i dream to be an actress to prove my father that even he leave us we can survive,i pray more and more for my mother to give them strength and guidance that all she do i pray more and more for her.
One of my memory when i was six, i remember the day how i feel when i enrolled in my first school i see a lot of tree,how big the ground,the basketball court,how long every corridor. its so amazing,i feel so comfortable in my first school.i smell the fresh air,and i see how beautiful of the school.when the class started i see many schooled like me,i remember I’ve got many friends in my first day of school,but when the day passes by,my friends hate me, truly my friends hate me because i’m so mean,because of my attitude,because i don’t like plastic people,i feel my friends is plastic so i allowed my self to be mean.funny but that’s the truth.
I can still remember how my mother slapped me because of soft drink,i shook for that and in the end i laugh,i snatch the soft drinks in my sister,so my sister cry and my mother slapped me and she said “I’m sorry” after that i laugh.I can still remember how the face of my mother form,i can still remember where are we that happened,in our room,she clean our room and then i snatch the soft drinks in my sister because i’m so trusty and my sister cry and cry,my mother shook and she slapped me and i cry, but she said i’m sorry and i laugh.Until now i laugh when i remember.
I never forget the day i play in our school,there’s a canal and there’s a fish, i play with a fish,i remember how i laid the ground to catch the fish,but i’m curious because the canal is so clean,i remember how i throw up the fish i cant forget the memory of my childhood especially when i was a six years old,every time i remember i laugh and i miss.
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